(un)familiar feeling

It was never really easy for me to understand how I can express what I really feel towards you. 

Heck I even gave up on the idea of telling you at all. I thought it was too early and why should I? It won’t make any difference anyway. I know that you do not feel the same way. Actually, I don’t. I don’t know what is on your mind and that, my friend, is exactly my point. I am too afraid to ask because whatever your answer might be, I am much of a coward to accept it.

I hope there’s a way for me to just know how you feel about it. Para tapos na. I don’t understand why I feel this way. I feel confused and weird. It’s like a brand new scary feeling but it feels familiar and good at the same time. Maybe I need to ask myself a hundred times again...Is it true? This feeling that I have? Am I not just overwhelmed? I certainly don’t know if this is wrong or right, true or not. All I know is that this is a good feeling, but it hurts as well.

If you read this (which would be somehow next to impossible), let me have a clue.

I won’t mind any kind of answer. I think I just need to know.

I think.

So I won’t get hurt.

I think. 

Nakaka-frustrate yung feeling. 
Kasi hindi ko naman alam ba't ganto feeling ko. 
WALA AKONG DAHILAN PARA SABIHIN SAYO KASI HINDI KO NAMAN ALAM KUNG MERON NGA BA TALAGA

/wrist